I was seven years old when I first recall my dad using my name to talk to me.
I still remember where I was standing and the feeling of shock as I thought, “He knows my name.” The eighth child in a family of 23 siblings, I didn’t feel like I mattered. I felt I was just another kid.
I was taught my value was measured by my loyalty to religious standards. I had no idea what LIVING felt like; I was in survival mode. When my internal battle would get more than I could bear, I was told “It’s not about this life. It’s about the next life.” My response was, “I don’t care about the next life. I just want happiness now.”
I didn’t know where or how to leave the religious group I grew up in. I felt locked in a mental prison with nowhere to turn for emotional support. We were taught anyone outside of the group was unworthy of God's love.
I found myself searching for answers.
What’s my life purpose?
Why this kind of life?
How can this be happiness?
I didn’t see happiness or feel it. I used to often ask “why” to be told “why” wasn’t an acceptable word in that religious culture.
One day as I was out looking up at the clouds, asking myself, “What’s my purpose?” I had a warm, comforting feeling come over me. I felt that one day I would have the honor of reparenting myself and that my life would be ok, but first I had to go through it. Like a pregnancy, which can be miserable at times, you can’t have the baby until it’s developed. So often, this is how our healing works. We must go through the process so that we can thrive on the other side.
When I was 35, I left the religious group. All connections with my siblings and moms were immediately cut off. There was no communication from them for 11 years. It was tough, but not as tough as living life that way. In my new found freedom, I found myself Googling things like “how to fit in in the real world,” “how to dress,” and “how to not look awkward.” Then I started reaching for internal healing. I saw how my relationship mirrored my childhood wounding. I was led to many books and a few courses. Slowly I was collecting tools for my healing, and I knew someday I’d be able to help others heal from the same cultural trauma as well.
In 2018, I was led to The Adult Chair®. The creator of the model, Michelle’s, work has assisted me in uncovering old wounding and empowered me to remove generational trauma and move towards my authentic self. I’ve moved out of survival mode into living and truly loving the person I’m becoming. I have become my own best friend. I have my own back, and no one can ever take that away from me.
What greater discovery is there than finding the hidden treasures of your beautiful soul?
You can claim your life and live as your most authentic self. I’m honored to walk with you on this journey of self-healing and discovery. I’m with you every step of the way.
“It’s your road and yours alone. Others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you” - Rumi
Much love and peace,
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— Paulette
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— Melissa
